Living in the Past..!!!

Baba, For a Very brief moment i want to stop living, i want to see you and talk to you.. I want to live in a world you exist......!! Just for one brief moment..!! I am feeling so helpless at the emptiness in our lives...! I cannot do anything...

Whats the point baba in being there for mom and brothers when the dust settles.?

Why did i get thru the MBA and why did u leave me once i got thru?

When will i ever get rid of my guilt conscious of letting you go? Was i not responsible?

Would you not come and tell me "Dont Bother Bhargav, i am there..I will take care"

This insecurity all of us are living with, No one can help us out of it except you baba,...

Vijay baba and Chinna baba are trying their best.. Whenever i talk to them, it reminds me of the possibility of you being there and you asking me how i am..

Whenever the food is bad, i remember the days where u used to stop eating......

Whenever i go out in Pratik's car baba, i remember driving you around in Hyd..

Why should life change so much?

Inspite of knowing everything baba, i am still not done away with the pain..!!

I hate to admit that i am still there without u..!!

Baba i miss the person who left me in a dead end with the car and just said bring it back without even asking if i know driving or not....!

I miss the person who used to pat me on the back always when i come home,

I miss the person who used to wait for to have dinner adn always and always stand by me

I miss the person who accepted Rohit without even meeting him just for the fact that he trusted me beyond anything else.!!!

I miss the person who used to miss me when i am not home....

I miss the person to whom i could say everything that is happening with brothers and take the advice on what to talk with them..

I miss the person who can give guidance and who insists on me writing Civil Services.! I miss everything about you baba....... Please take me along.. Jus for a moment though.. But please ... I have never been so lonely in my life..!!