19th May - 19th Sept

4 months since that day baba.......... Still memories so fresh....... Everytime 19th comes, i try and ignore what happened..... But our lives changed so much after May 19th and i cannot just forget things..! Everything and every feeling of those 2 days in May are still within me. It cuts through the heart and by 5:49 on 20th of May i knew you were gone...... i knew the fear i had from the bottom of my stomach...... i knew life is gonna change........ i knew what would u say if u were there with me then....................

I remember baba, you always tell me that if i cry i bring you bad luck... probably the first time fear was catchin up with me that day.. And i cried....... i see you sitting in the ICU and telling me i am absolutely alright Bhargav.....but i cried looking at you.. I knew you were not alright as u said and i could not stand it..!! I cried and i lost you ..!!

The journey of these 4 months were both up's and down's.. Am carrying on with my life baba, but i am not myself...... i m totally energetic and laughing around.. Back to being a student.. End of the day, i am not happpy..!! I will never be happy without u..... This will always come to haunt me baba, that you have left me abruptly and there are so many things undone and unsaid........ So many promises to be kept......! So many things to be seen together !!

I will never forgive the god sitting there,. you are not supposed to be gone........ Please Look after Jaya baba, i am very worried for him.. Help mom find someone for upstairs.. Help us to live !!!!

Please appear atleast once in my life........ if only in my dreams but allow me a last glance......

Our last ride in the ambulance and our last conv in the hospital haunt me baba....... these memories never leaves me alone.. NEVER !