Baba

New year has begun and you know what a roller coaster ride it was !!

Last year same time things were so different baba !! The dream i was talking about last time, i am not able to forget it at all baba.. i sit in the exam hall, i close my eyes to remember an answer i see your face.!!

Dream!!

I dont know why i dreamt a younger you and Jaya baba.!! It was a dream where you were as fit as a horse.. u were not weak or suffering. Jaya was a small kid who just learnt how to walk types... ill write down the details of the dream later on baba.... but u looked so young and fit... its like when i saw you may be in my school time.....!! i hope wherever u r now, you are exactly like how i imagine you to be.!!

2012

2012, i really wish the world ends! I cant wait to see you or hear you !! I want to hear your voice and be called "Bhargav" the way u used to :( I really want to come to you !! See you and hug you !

I am scared baba , what if i fail you? what if i cannot get shiva and jaya on the right track?

i am very scared of living without you !!! u must have seen wat has happened....... i wondered how wud u tackle if u were here... or may be it wouldnt have happened if you were still with us !!

Life is very tough baba !! Help me !! Pls ! i have a feeling i am gonna lose it all...... the whole charm of life is going ! my only wish now is to be with you !!! Burning desire it is becoming :(