Memories !

Baba they say you have to move on with life being glad that u have got good memories to think of.. When i have good memories about you, shouldnt i smile and be glad that you are my dad and move on? Why do i always have tears in my eyes baba when i think of you? Why do i still want more? What am i never satisfied with what i had with you...... I still want more and more of you..!! Everything still rings in my ears....... Your last words,,... Saying i am absolutely alright, Dont worry ani... I so wish that was true.. I so wish things changed that night and you were back home talking. .. i wish so many things..... help me get into the reality.. I am scared baba.. how would we go on without u??