Commitment.!

Baba, Amma wants to get my engagement done asap... She is scared. Before something happens to her, she wants me to be settled.... totally understandable.... I keep wondering baba, what will happen if something would happen to amma also..... And I dont want to get married without u.... i still remember the day u told me that u would not be anywhere around when i would be going off after marriage.... Baba i did not know you not being around would be like this....... You remember? i used to tell you ill not go without seeing you and making sure you are alright! How do i do that now??? How do i make sure you are alright to be gone?? I dont want to get married or get into any commitment.... Please help me in this :(