When Death Knocks at your door,....it kills every1 in that house

Baba, life is going on.. its more than 6 months u left us and we are all alive and moving on...That part i hate the most.... New year is cmng in baba...... Last year same time we were all at home...... i want my life back..... over all 2010 was a disaster. .. i worked super hard to become an HR but to gain something i had to lose something..... i lost you instead.. if i had even a small hint that my life is going to take a total turn, i would not have left my job baba..... i feel helpless....... im desperately in need to come to you..... i need gandhinagar... its like a drug which i am addicted to.. i need to see your office , our home , our memories to live peacefully again.... But again im so worried about finances, since u r gone , me and shiva had to join our professional course.... i always remember ur words.... nw when i want to go home, i cannot baba.... one of us have to control our finances....... and now it has to be me....... And i need you..... Give me one hint atleast.. Should i go to hyd or no??