One last conversation..!

Baba, all this while i really thought that i have accepted a lot of things in life, i have accepted your absence more than anything, but off late baba, i realized i did not....... i intentionally dream of you.. i play the entire scene of your death again and think what all i can make alright and what all i should have done to get things right..... At what moment u knew ki u r not gonna survive,, i knew frm the moment u asked me to put you on a ventilator you have given up on living. i knew you have stopped trying from then on.. .. Oh god baba, its like not sharp knife going into your heart....I miss you baba, i wish i could have one last conversation with you..!!