Wednesday, 26 October 2011

i wish i could tell you i hate you..

Baba, the whole of the time i am here, i am only listening to the stories of you and me and your cases.... How a tiny little girl enters an office full of criminals and just a tiny little girl could make a senior lawyer dance to her tunes.!!
How u helped 200 families get a roof over their head without taking a single pie, How a old lady from sudarshan theatre found her son after 13 yrs... How you used to cross examine a commissioner of police and how that commissioner of police tried to kill you....
How you left your criminal practice just because your daughter has grown up and u cant take a risk for her.... and how much your practice went down once u stopped taking criminal cases... How full your office used to be.... How much people wanted to kill you and how much people loved you....
How u helped the pujaris at Venkateshwara temple on reopening the temple and how you sat outside the temple with an axe till the puja was done..! Oh baba, i just dont want to cry... i want to shout to you that i hate you for leaving me here and going... I cant help but accept that i love you and i love you like no one else can........ And i want you to hear me out..! Just once.....!


I was at pedda baba's place .... all i could do was, control my tears.. i could not stop looking at him and think about you... when stories about you were being told, i could only imagine you doing it...... i could imagine you laughing out loud after coming out from the court hall after your arguments with Judge Gowri. I can imagine you telling mom to run away with me if some one comes and threatens...i can imagine you putting chilli powder packets all over the house for our protection.. i can imagine you sitting outside the temple with an axe till the puja gets done....... i can imagine everythin that was being told to me..... And i cant help but cry inside that why did not i see more of you? i got just 24 yrs exact to be with you... sadly my birthday 2011 was the last where i had your blessings and you were witness to me growing up another year..! Well Give me the poise and the calm u possessed.! I need it more than ever in this trip !! :(

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