Baba, i got a dream, the day i had been to lonavla, i slept at 7 in the morning.. I dreamt that you were telling me that your sugar levels are going low. and i knew you were gonna die..... i just come and hug and you become a kid...... i am only sitting like that fr hours hugging and you and u just die...... Baba is it a sign that i have accepted your death or is it a way you are telling me to accept the death.. its still hurting like crazy baba. . . . i know you have also lived after losing your brother sister father and mother.. but werent you old enough to tolerate the pain then?

Shiva and Jaya are hardly 18..... And i dont even know at that age if i would be able to take the news like they did........! You and mom taught us well baba.. We are stil stable inspite of having a burning desire to see you again.....!!

You know after you left, Jaya did not want to believe you are gone.... he got a dream that he is sitting out and cleanin the bike and you get down from an auto and you ask him for money.. and he is shocked and everything else....! How do we console ourselves baba? You did not teach us to give into the destiny..... i want to fight.... i want you back !! i am more worried about jaya mom and teju.. they are the ones left back at home and they need more strength than anyone of us..! More than me and shiva.!!

Why is it that the yearning to see you only increases ? i am glad in a way.. i do not want to get used to living without you.. ! NEVER!